No one talks about medication, it’s a taboo subject and one that indicates weakness, but I don’t subscribe to that. This is the truth about postnatal depression and chronic pain.
The back story
You probably all know that I suffered from severe postnatal depression, but what you may not know is that I have also lived with chronic pain for the last 5 years. I have a bad back following an accident I had on the wards as a student where I fell onto my coccyx. I was rushing a patient into a room as she was delivering her baby and my feet went from under me in the moment.
At the time I was diagnosed with sacroiliac joint dysfunction which is when the area where your spine and pelvis meet. With this, there is abnormal motion in the joint, either the joint is twisted or the joint moves more than it should do. This caused a lot of problems when I was pregnant and I ended up on crutches for the third trimester.
Fast forward to now and I recently had another MRI scan, this time it showed a disc prolapse and degeneration of the facet joints. Which completely knocked me for six. I genuinely believed the result would come back the same as it did 5 years ago, that there were no spinal issues but chronic inflammation and permanent change to the muscles in my back.
The first thing I asked was, “What does this mean?” and the short answer was – very little. I won’t need to have any surgery or therapy, but just take pain relief where required and try gentle exercise like Pilates or Yoga to strengthen my core.
But as I popped my pills for yesterday I thought about how many I have to take. So many people survive with mental health issues without medication, but I don’t, and along with the other supplements and pain killers, the amount quickly creeps up.
So here it is, this is what I take every morning and night.
I know it is nothing compared to others out there, but people are very reluctant to talk about medication and mental health or chronic pain. It isn’t the devil and I can safely say these tablets saved my life. I have no shame about what I take and will talk about it openly if anyone wanted to know. At one time I thought medication was the worst thing that could happen and I wouldn’t feel or experience life the same if I was “dependent” on “Big Pharma“, but that was bulls**t, and now I actually enjoy my life rather than being wracked with depression or excruciating pain.
If you are out there and suffering from chronic pain or mental health issues, please listen to your doctors, if they recommend trying pills, have a go with medication if you need to, it really isn’t that bad. I have also tried TENS machines, massage and mindfulness to help with both issues, so try other alternatives as well. I loved these two apps when I was in the postnatal period as they were fantastic for my anxiety and helping me sleep, and my husband loved operating my TENS machine for me, even if I didn’t!
Do you have to take regular medication? Do you find it a chore or are you happy to take the pills if you need them?
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